Oh baby!!

So Here's pictures from 4 weeks to 12. I was heavy to begin with so I guess this helps a little bit to see that I actually did grow a little bit of a belly

Lazy

I really have no energy to do anything. I am so beyond lazy it's not even funny. Rick doesn't understand and thinks I just don't wanna do anything (aka clean) but I really just don't have the energy. I lay in bed until like 2pm (i wake up around 1!!) and lay with the puppies. It's relaxing to me (until they start fighting) .. I dunno what to say to him anymore about it. He thinks I'm making up the fatigue. He's a dumb boy haha.

I got super sick this week, I threw up like 3 or 4 times. It makes absolute no sense to me which annoys me! But we'll see what happens from here on out. I am wearing a pair of pre pregnancy jeans with the button unbutton and i still feel pressure on my uterus. I can't believe how big you get at this point. I know it's not fat because I barely gained anything! It's a little exciting but right now I just feel tremendously big! I actually stick out my stomach even more when I'm out in public so I look pregnant rather than being fat. Because I know best how embarrassing it is to be fat. I tried to hide all of the time and was completely self conscious. Now I wonder if people who see me being pregnant with tattoos think I just got knocked up. It's a sad world we live in.

Not much pregnancy news going on with me though. Monday we go for the first part of the nuchael test to test for down syndrome. I'm a little nervous but I know my chances of a child with down syndrome is soooo low.. but you still never know. I'm just glad I'll get to see my little pup! a week after that I go for my other appointment and I'm sure I won't be back until I'm like 16 weeks or later.

Rick and I booked our trip for Disney. We're staying at All Star Movies from January 27th-February 4th. We might switch it so we're staying half the trip there and half the trip at Port Orleans Riverside since my discount is sooo good (59 bucks a night!!) we'll see. but we got the dining plan which I'm excited about that!! FOOD FOOD FOOD! we booked most of the restaraunts which of course we're going to Boma! We got EVERY SINGLE TIME and when we lived there we used to go. It's seriously the best restaurant ever! We're going to a character dinner which should be neat cause I'll be showing by then (i'll be 19 weeks!) and maybe i'l get a few shots with the characters touching my belly. I know i'm lame! We're just really gonna take it easy this trip and relax! I hope it's warm enough to swim. I wanna lay out on a hammock and just lay low. we're probably gonna resort hop and enjoy their amenities. We're only going to the parks a few days which will only suck cause I won't be able to go on Everest or Space Mountain.. and other rollercoasters but it'll still be fun. especially Epcot! It'll be strange not to drink at Disney but I'll survive.. I promise!! I'm just really looking forward to my last trip as a married childless woman and spend some time with Rick. We really don't see eachother much :( We're going again to disney probably the end of October.. We always go that time for Food & Wine festival and Rick's birthday. Rick's parents are coming though. They kinda invited themselves but they're just excited the baby will be going. It's fine, we can go on a nice dinner and stick them with the baby haha. I'm such a nice mommy!

Ok well I'm gonna go eat cause I'm starrrrrving and so are the doggies.

Was it planned??

I keep getting this question.. honestly, what's the difference? Should I be less happy if we weren't planning on getting pregnant?? a blessing is a blessing. I think this is beyond rude and disgusting. Same thing goes for "is Rick happy" ... no.. he's not. he's absolutely miserable. come on people. wake the fuck up. Why the hell wouldn't he be happy? and if he wasn't, what's it your business?? I know that I've got alot of hormones going on right now but honestly, these questions are just beyond rude. So please stop. It wouldn't be any of your business to begin with.

That being said, I went to a mexican grill place today, ate like a pig and now I feel like I'm gonna vomit... speaking of vomit. I had checkers yesterday (can you see a pattern of healthy food!!) and a few hours later I felt so sick to my stomach, I went to the bathroom, threw up and it splashed me in the face. I cried hysterically for 10 minutes. Rick thinks I'm nuts but if you know me, I'm terrified of puke. I'm not exactly sure why I even threw up. I haven't gotten sick since like middle of week 7!! I hate getting sick :(

I went to Century 21 today to get some knock off uggs and went in the baby section and they have the most adorable clothes!! they have a bunch of Ed Hardy baby stuff which I fell in love with. I hate the brand for adults but for kids, it's adorable. Soooo expensive though! a sweatshirt was almost 60 bucks!! how crazy. They also have Kenneth Cole dress up clothes and I want it sooo badly!!! I really just wanna find out what I'm having!! I hope all of the boy puppy clothes I bought will have some use!! haha. otherwise I'll be sending it Jaime's way or someone else that's having a boy!

I watched National Geographic's "Inside the Womb" and it was sooo fascinating. a little scary (they showed the woman giving birth standing up and showed EVERYTHING! it all just came splashing down and I almost lost my lunch) But I got to see what my baby looks like at this moment and it's sooo cute! Starting to look like a baby and not so much an alien!

I've been giving my labor/birth alot of thought and I definitely wanna labor at home as much as possible. It seems like it's more of a relaxing process, I'll take a bath, walk around alot, be with the dogs for the last few moments (i'll be missing them like crazy when I'm in the hospital for the couple of days!) One girl on a baby story did that, went to the hospital and she was already 6 centimeters!! If I could skip all of that in the hospital, that would be amazing but I know not to expect anything. I'm more scared of pooping on the table and Rick seeing it than the actual labor itself. I know he'll never let me live it down and I'll be embarrassed forever! He'll never wanna touch me again! I told him he can't watch but he insists on watching yet he doesn't wanna cut the cord. That makes no sense to me! I'm gonna cut the cord myself then! The baby was a part of me in my body and I'll cut it free from myself. I'm definitely going to want all the drugs I can get. I have no intentions on suffering with pain for this! no way in hell.

So I went to the specialty bra place today to get measured and buy a bra that will lift me up.. Yeah.. I'm a 40G.. I wanna die.. I said EXCUSE ME? She gave me a 40 so it's a little bigger for me to grow but a G???? my god!! I'm gonna have quadrupal X's by the time I'm done with pregnancy and breastfeeding! I am starting to get a little rounder which is good. I don't wanna look just fat. I never wanted to be this heavy to begin with and now I gotta go through it being pregnant! I wanted to be a cute skinny pregnant girl. Oh well.. maybe next pregnancy. Well I'm gonna go play with the dogs. They've been missing me while I was shopping. Finnegan's sitting in my lap as I type this. He never leaves me alone. I'm almost worried about when the baby is here! ok well till next time

Here are some pictures from yesterday.. Still a little fat but a little baby coming through!

11 Weeks Pregnant

So I decided to start a blog to write my thoughts, concerns & vents about this pregnancy! I don't know if anyone will read it but it's really just for me to get things out so it's fine. I'm 11 weeks 2 days pregnant right now and besides the occasional nausea, I'm great! I was lucky and had "morning sickness" for about a week and a half.. but really it's longer cause it was a week and a half of throwing up and dry heaving. I was always nauseous so I dunno if that fits into morning sickness. I've gained a 1.5 pounds since I got pregnant which is good but I don't really wanna gain anything. The doctor said that I could gain 1 pound during the pregnancy and that's fine because I was overweight to begin with. The absolute most I wanna gain is 15 pounds. I plan to breastfeed or at least pump so you do lose a pretty good amount of weight from that. Then after that, it's back to "dieting". I hate that word. I'll say lifestyle change.. I was doing great before I got pregnant.. well I slipped for about a month but still!

I had my last doctors appointment on Tuesday and we got to see our lil pup!! it was great. The baby was flopping around like a little fish and it's measuring great, strong heartbeat. Things are looking good which is great cause I've been really worried lately. I know miscarriage is a very common thing, so I'm terrified that it'll happen. I'm still not in the clear. But I'm trying not to stress too much about it. I was really stressed in the beginning but started to get in the groove of pregnancy I guess.

We've been starting to think of names and it's such a hard thing cause everything I love, Rick hates! and right now, Rick's not really trying to think of those things. He says it's silly cause I'm still too early but I think it's never to early to THINK of names. He swears by the name Kelly for a boy but I don't want it. I don't want my kid getting beat up! It's gonna be something irish regardless.. I like Seamus but Rick's family thinks he'll get beat up. Seamus is a very popular irish name so I don't see how. We'll see.

Well I'm gonna take the dogs out to the bathroom and feed them and myself. It's been long enough!! Here are some pics from my 2nd sonogram!